I believe in God. The Universe. My angels.
I feel my deceased father around me, even 32 years later. I talk to him periodically.
I have faith.
Ain’t no man or men that can change the shape my soul is in. – Avett Brothers
But I still have no idea what the fucking point of all of this is.
Why does my brain want me to self-destruct? The thoughts that percolate in there are dark sometimes, my virtual friends.
As my mom would say about me, I don’t handle stress well. This is true. What also is true, my entire family knows that I’m a bit off my wheel.
“Crazy Aunt Abbey.”
Yep. And honestly, as much as I hate to admit it, I am.
Might as well own up to that shit, am I right?
I pray to God & Company to assist me in this life, to help me to stick around and not swallow a cocktail of medications or hang myself from a nice oak tree in the park. I really don’t want to go, but fuck my brain when it starts going in that direction.
I am used to those thoughts, that I am weak and not worth much to anyone. It’s true that under stress, I crack like an old coffee mug. I’ve always been rather Eeyore-like, I hide it behind my sense of humor. I am not the only person who does that, it’s a survival tactic. It’s always worked for me, everybody loves a clown.
A sad clown, a fake-ass funny, happy fucking clown.
I pray with tearful eyes, please God, help me stay strong.
Help me stay alive.
I’ll pray for you too, if you’d like.
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Yes, that would be wonderful of you. ❤
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Done. And will continue.
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I like the idea of “God and Company” – I hope they see you through.
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Yeah, I want all of my bases covered. 🙂
Me too.
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Amen! xxoo!!!
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❤
I also have GED and Osteoarthritis.
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I mean GAD.
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Ha! I was wondering how GED fit!?!? Gotta love spell check. GAD! I get it now. I was told I had sever anxiety but was never diagnosed per the DSM. Now I can be treated for it. Relief!
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I mean ‘severe’ !!!
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Damn it, Kim!
I’m glad you’re getting treatment finally, anxiety sucks. CBD oil also helps me, only bad thing is the cost is up there so I don’t always have some.
I also have PTSD. I am not shocked by that at all. ❤
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Yep! It all lines up with my other diagnoses as well. I take an RX. It is basically an antihistamine on crack. Love in a bottle! 💜
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Nice, lol. ❤
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To feel the world’s woes doesn’t mean you’re broken, it means you care. It’s those who do not care who are broken.💕
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You are such a burst of fresh air! ❤
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